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October 28, 2004
counting the ways
I'm running out of ways to entertain myself on a slow night at work. Tonight I checked on all of my online bargain shopping status things. I should be getting steady packages for the next few weeks. YAY. I love getting packages, even if I'm the one paying for them and the stuff inside isn't for me.
I also checked all of my email accounts. Quiznos sent me an apology coupon for the coupon that they apparently screwed up in a previous email (that I apparently didn't even read). I think this is God's way of telling me that diets suck and I should have a fucking sub when I'm hungry. I won't though. Get thee behind me quiznos-satan!
Tonight was "clean fridge 1" night here at work. For a week there has been a sign on Fridge 1 stating that the food inside would be tossed on Wednesday night and if people wanted to keep the food, they should move it to Fridge 2. So before the cleaning guy could go in and toss everything, my coworker, Josh, and I went in and looted fridge 1. We're now very wealthy in condiments, frozen meals, string cheese and pudding. I had a moment of panic when I realized that the cleaning dude hadn't yet cleaned the fridge and we might be busted, but he went in around 2am and cleaned it out. All is well and I had a vegetarian lasagne frozen dinner, courtesy of some schmuck who just couldn't follow the rules. Thank you very much.
I also read Oprah magazine. I hate this magazine because 3/4 of it is spent preaching about faith 'n shit. I just wanted some cookie recipes and Christmas decorating ideas. I rekon it would have been wiser to read Good Housekeeping, huh? Oh well. Oprah did give me some good tips on wine so this prompted me to go online and, you guessed it, shop more! I have 5 bottles of wine ordered so that I can stroll into Total Wine and pick them up without actually shopping. I also ordered a cheapo bed frame so I can finally hopefully get rid of this gee dee crik in my neck. Please please please let it work.
I am going on shopping hiatus now...this is a good thing since I'm almost out of money. Oh, but mom wants a record player...so I'll need to shop for one of those. Oh, and Kendallpops wants this for Christmas: 
Sooooo, I'll shop more later...not tonight though.
I also took an hour long nap for lunch, pee'd like 100 times, filled my water thing 5 times and ate some twizzlers. I'm in a good mood at 4:32am because at 2something pm yesterday(Tuesday) Dan snuck in surprised me during a break from work. Once I realized he wasn't a killer there to slaughter kasey cat and me I was beyond pleased by the surprise. I think he's just the sweetest boyfriend ever.
Posted by krystal at 4:32 AM
October 27, 2004
kinks
I have a crik in my neck, the likes of which I haven't had since LAST YEAR when I needed a new box spring for my bed. My bed isn't faring well these days and I've got the feeling this neck/back pain is related to my poor sagging, creaking, falling apart bed. I swear, I go through the entire year without being ill and now in one week I've had pneumonia, a crick in my neck and a yeast infection (thank you antibiotics). This is all on top of my obgyn telling me to dump 20 lbs. I hate her. She asked me who I'm voting for then insisted I vote for Bush. I hate her. She said I have to get a mamogram. I hate her. I hope she goes back to uhh whichever polynesian country she came from and stays there with her sadistic views and practices.
This week I started, and made a nice big dent in, my Christmas shopping. I love amazon.com and the entire intarwebs. It doesn't make much sense to shop online when the stores will have mega-super sales soon but I hate shopping. I hate malls, stores, crowds and fa la la'ing bell ringers. I just like to have my shit done and wrapped so I can enjoy the festivities of the season without a bunch of stupid stuff looming over my head.
It's the long week of work. I'm tired and there's one more shift and 1 hour and 13 minutes still to work. It's not been so horrible though. I caught up on my magazine reading. I read Wired, Family Fun and then went to the store and got the latest Cosmo. I now know all of the things I can learn about my man in 10 minutes and and and *bonus* I also know ALL ABOUT MY GUY...inside his head, his heart and his ... (who writes this shit?)
Cool things coming up:
-Ed (beamurhed) and his wife Kris will be coming to visit in a few weeks. I haven't seen Ed since I was married still and James was screaming at me 'n stuff. I can't wait to see him again and to meet his lovely bride.
-Going to see Steph in 3 weeks for a few days. I will most likely be the palest person in Florida in November.
-Tree's birthday is in November, so is mom's and Jake's.
-Halloween party this Saturday. My costume's gonna kick ass. It's gonna be so fun.
Posted by krystal at 5:05 AM | Comments (1)
October 26, 2004
spider
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October 25, 2004
ass quandry
I have never been good at pooping. In fact, I remember mom taking ex-lax on vacation with us because she knew that I wouldn't poop once we'd left the house. So on long trips I was facing 7 days of constipation. I never thought it was psychological. I poop a few times a week and only at home. I'll go one further and say that I only poop at home when I'm alone. If you think it's absurd, try being me. Try explaining to my body that it's ok to go when others are home or when I'm at work. Go ahead. Try. It won't work. I've used colon cleansers and stuff and they've worked. Sort of. I get to the point where I can poop daily but rarely in any place other than my home.
So now I'm in this relationship. On weekends (which sometimes start on Wednesday and end Sunday night), I am pretty much with Dan the whole time. My body has yet to figure out what we're supposed to do now. It gurgles and whines and gets all bloaty and even farts (in my sleep of course), but it does not poop. Noooo siree bob.
Today we went to breakfast with Peggy and Alex at Martin's diner. I came home, kissed the handsome boyfriend goodbye and within 2 minutes it was time to poop. W T F? I want to have normal poops. I'm not ashamed of it. Even the queen takes a dump. Why oh why can't I go like normal people??
Posted by krystal at 3:39 AM | Comments (2)
October 22, 2004
Upswing
I found out Tuesday morning that I have pneumonia. I knew I'd felt like shit for a few days and couldn't stop coughing but it got to the point where I couldn't breathe so I went on in to the hospital and found out why. I've spent the last few days just sleeping and lounging in my pajamas like a load. I still feel a little crappy but not nearly as bad. Kendallpops hasn't bounced back from her cough so today I'll take her to the good doctor to see what's up in her little body. I hope it's not the same thing. *sigh* At least Trev's better. Dan's been here each night to administer tlc and I'm sure that's helped tons with recovery.
I think the hardest part of being sick is that you don't get to stop being a mom til you feel better. I had 2 sick kids who needed me too...wah. boofuckin hoo. It's ok now.
Tonight the kids go to their dad's and I'm guessing we won't venture far from home.
As usual, natalie dee says it just right:
Posted by krystal at 8:07 AM
October 18, 2004
Pants
I was waiting for the bus to bring Jake home Wednesday afternoon when his principal called to tell me that he suspected Jake was involved in a pantsing at school. We talked for a good while and I finally told him to give me 5 minutes and I'd call him back (hopefully with an answer). Jake confessed to me that he had indeed yanked the kid's gym shorts down while they ran laps and then denied any knowledge of it to the principal. This resulted in 2 days of out of school suspension and 1 day of in-school-suspension. I got dad to have Jake clean up construction sites for his 2 days off. *sigh*
Thursday night we had our normal tkd/hockey combo and then our normal Survivor watching and rambunctious bed time rituals. Dan being over certainly has changed how bedtime goes (meaning: it's a zoo). I do love Thursdays though.
Friday I got my weekly racquetball beating from Tyler but this time I did a bit better and only lost by 7 or 8 points per game instead of 10. He said I'm improving. I also did a really nice dive which resulted in a floor burn on the side of my leg. Fun!
After that, I got ready for Gayle lunch time. We had artichoke dip and some crappy chicken stuff I cooked from the freezer section. We also had a few beers and I took a nap. I woke up to 3 kids and Dan taking my picture with bunny ears. We went to the movies Friday night and had a really good time. Dan and I saw Shaun of the Dead. It was a pretty good flick. The kids saw Sharks Tale. I think the little ones liked it but Jake would have been happier with us.
Saturday was hockey in the morning after breakfast and then the pumpkin patch in the afternoon. By the afternoon I was feeling the full effects of my new sickness. We babysat for my bro's kids while they all went out for birthday dinners. I cooked on the grill and then we all zonked out pretty early.
By morning the casualty count was 3. Trevor, Kendall and I all had fevers and aches. We doped up and then spent the day watching the first season of South Park. Tonight was back to work. I don't feel any better and work is taking forever to end. I just want to sleep. On the bright side...my boyfriend is the sweetest ever. I couldn't be happier.
Posted by krystal at 3:25 AM
October 13, 2004
Stage left
I'm wearing the Natalie Dee shirt that Peggy made for me in the summer. The iron on is crinkly beneath the fleece pullover that I have to wear to keep my boobs from freezing right off. It's so fucking cold in this office that I really could lose an appendage or even a tit. It is only my hatred (yummy hatred) that keeps me warm.
harrr.
Tonight I've been listening to the local band mix that Alex made for the cd exchange. I'm growing fonder of Keller Williams. I wasn't really crazy about him (them?) at first but even the techno-ey song is sounding neat. I could just be tired though. I'm digging The Lowboys a lot and of course, (heylookits)Mike Setti.
I got tons done today. At least I made tons of appointments to get things done. That's a start I guess. I also dumped off the cooler that's been riding around in my trunk since labor day. I did the chickenshit thing and dumped it at 1am when I knew I wouldn't be spotted but screw it, I did what I had to do...besides, I'm nocturnal, dammit. I do night-ey kind of things.
I had to take Trevor to tkd and leave him without a parent for like 30 minutes tonight til James could pick him up. I felt really guilty but he told me not to. James said I'm a spaz and that Trev was oblivious to not having a parent watching him do his karate chop stuff but I still hate that he was there chopping without me watching.
One more hour of work today then 12 hours tonight and then I'm done. I get paid this week too AAAAAND I have Christmas money coming. I feel 85% less stressed than I did Tuesday morning. 95% less than Monday. Shit, by tomorrow morning I'm likely to be a complete careless flake.
59 minutes now.
Out!
Posted by krystal at 5:10 AM
October 12, 2004
Chris day
Today (actually yesterday) we celebrate(d) Columbus day. "Gold is a treasure, and he who possesses it does all he wishes to in this world, and succeeds in helping souls into paradise" There. There's your Chris Columbus quote. I hope you enjoy it. I know I did.
We also celebrate errr sadly note the passing of Chris Reeve. Here's your Superman quote: "Even though I don't personally believe in the Lord, I try to behave as though He was watching"
I have to wonder if he said that before or after falling off of the horse.
Now that that's over with. It's actually tomorrow anyway so all that Chris horseshit was out of date. I apologize for that, I'm just slow.
***
This morning I gathered my kids from their dad's house on the way home from work. I felt a twinge of guilt because James and Robin have decorated their house with all this Halloweeny crap. I know that I fall short in several areas of motherhood and Halloween is one of em. The others would have to be the tooth fairy, dinner cooking and general patience. I try to make up for it w/ my utter coolness. (ha. right).
So anyway, add to my shitty night, the fact that I feel outdone as a parent in the holiday department by my redneck exhusband's new wife. I drove home listening to the babies talking about their weekend, poured them some cereal and then trudged off to bed, defeated. I don't remember falling asleep, I don't remember any dreams. I don't remember anything until 12:30 when my cell phone rang. It rang with its new ringer that is not the nokia default ring. No sirreebob, there will be no default ringer hehe. I thought to myself "if you get up and answer this, you will hear an unfriendly voice". So I stayed asleep for a bit longer and then heard the ring again at 1. I answered it, half asleep, and it was Dan. He was at McDonalds and on his way over. Yay! I think I told him that I was going to shower before he came over, but that didn't happen. What a good boy. He brought food and happiness and the day was saved before it could be wrecked...ha. Take that, Chris day!
Posted by krystal at 4:31 AM
October 11, 2004
Sunday/Monday
Tonight hasn't been a very good night. Regardless, I'll muddle through since the weekend was so peachy keen. They can't all be wizbangers, right?
Wednesday was sleeping and then cooking pork chops on the grill. We watched Envy. I don't think any of us were impressed by the movie but they did say "where does the shit go? we want to know!" Which is pretty catchy, I guess.
Thursday morning I hauled my butt to the Y to play racquetball with Tyler which was "passion of the racquetball" since he kicked my ass repeatedly for an hour and then I came back home to wake up the kids and Dan and feed everyone a healty breakfast of nothing-fucking-special. I went back to bed once the kids went to school and slept til 12:30. It takes me a few days now to get back into the groove of daylight life. Thursday night was karate and hockey and then Survivor and bedtime. I can't express how happy I am to have a tv show that I like. It might be retarded to anyone else, but it's not to me so pfft.
Friday Gayle came over at lunch, which is becoming a tradition, and we had girly food and beers. I'm a huge fan of porch sitting and girl talk. It's good for the soul. Once we were sufficiently talked out, Gayle left, the kids left. I sobered up and waited for Dan to get off of work and we went to Green Orbits for a goodbye party. It was difficult being around the smokers while not smoking so we only stayed an hour or so and then rented a movie and went home. The movie was Bubba ho-tep...uhh. I hated it, Dan liked it. Apparently I'm in the minority because everyone we tell we watched that movie just loved it! It had elvis, a black Jack Kennedy and a mummy....wtf?
Saturday morning we went house shopping. The weather was great and the house with the cool colors won. It was a productive house hunt because it ended with a contract offer being made. I guess my boy's going to be a homeowner by the end of the month. Very cool for him! Saturday night we went to a cookout at Colleen's house. Steak and champagne on the deck in the cool autumn air. The only thing that could be better is...
Spending all day Sunday in bed making out. Which is what we did.
Now I'm back at work,which sucks. I had a really unsettling phone call, which sucks.
It's been a long hard year and finally things feel good but having to see what a fool I was has been a very humbling and humiliating experience. I try to not have regrets, especially about loving someone, but I'm very sorry I opened myself up in this case, just to be made aware of how stupid I was and how awful people can be.
I have given up on protecting my dignity but I will not give up on protecting my family and myself. I guess that's what I'm facing right now.
Posted by krystal at 5:33 AM | Comments (4)
The kids at their dad's house
Posted by krystal at 4:44 AM
October 6, 2004
How lame am I? Let me count the ways
10 random things about me
1. I cant stand clutter but dust and dirt aren't a huge issue to me.
2. I don't like mayonaise.
3. I'm currently reading 4 different books but I'm only really fond of 1.
4. Shopping makes me itchy. I hate spending money because I don't have much. (amazon and drugstore.com are the exceptions)
5. I love mornings more than night time.
6. I farted in bed last week and it was verified. (I thought I must have dreamt it)
7. I'm trying to quit smoking and it's harder than anything I've done in a long long time.
8. I usually choose to listen to country music or talk radio when I'm alone in my car.
9. My taste in music might suck but it destroys your taste in music.
10. I like doing laundry
9 places i've visited:
1. Cancun
2. Niagra Falls
3. Chicago
4. Philadelphia
5. Talladega
6. Pensacola
7. D C
8. Floyd
9. Snell
8 things i want to do before i die:
1. Raise my kids
2. Own 10 pairs of socks that have no holes in em
3. Figure out how to make waffles without having them stick to the waffle iron or rip in two because I'm too nosey to leave them alone.
4. Be debt free
5. Protest something
6. Be done with Christmas shopping before December
7. Tell people how easy it is to be a non-smoker, once you're used to it.
8. Become a grandmother
7 ways to win my heart:
1-7 Ask my kids
6 things i believe in:
1. I believe that October is the most awesome month ever created.
2. I believe that my kids are the greatest gift I've ever gotten, even when they make me want to scream.
3. That the world is really screwed up (myself included) because we'll let kids watch violence on tv but we're scared to death of sex.
4. I believe in God, but I joke about it in case I'm wrong (sorry God)
5. I believe you can laugh about anything...this gets me in so much trouble.
6. I believe that everything's gonna be alright.
5 things i'm afraid of:
1. Birds with big flappy wings.
2. Disappointing my parents (which is a lost cause)
3. Disappointing my kids (so far they like me still)
4. Getting fat again
5. Spending Christmas alone
4 of my Favorite Items in my bedroom
1. My shoes
2. My books
3. My boyfriend
4. My good smelling girlie stuff
3 things i do every day:
1. weigh myself
2. hate myself for the weight
3. brush my teeth
2 things i'm trying not to do right now:
1. work
2. dwell on my bank balance
1 person i want to strangle:
1. Myself. Self-mutilation is teh hotness.
Posted by krystal at 1:42 AM
October 4, 2004
I'm not stupid.
I got my link things all lined up. I just needed to take the initiative to do it myself rather than whining (like I usually do).
Posted by krystal at 4:31 AM | Comments (1)
Naked eye
It's the short week. Here I go again ticking off the days of work as quickly as possible so I can get to the weekend again. I know I should be making the most of the days but meh...I suck.
Weekend in reverse...but not all the way.
Sunday: kids gone to church, finally alone time with Dan(I think he's the cat's pajamas), doing laundry, going to work
Saturday: chaos in the house, company all day, lots of food and beer and pictures, kids everywhere, exhaustion.
Friday: wine at 12:30, wine at 1:30, beer after that. smoking, patio sitting, passing out. Feeling guilty
Thursday: yummy lunch date, saying bye to Steph, karate, hockey, survivor, more smooching.
***
Being hormonal sucks. I know I should be used to PMS by now but topped with quitting smoking, it's kicking my ass. Insecurities and moodiness abound. I wish I could sleep for a week. I'm trying my best not to be mental...I just feel uglier than every other female. That's normal, right? right. Thought so.
Posted by krystal at 3:16 AM