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August 31, 2004

and...

James does not have cancer. He has a hernia. If a hernia was ever good news, this would be the time.

I'm grateful that my kids get to keep their dad a bit longer.

Posted by krystal at 3:52 AM

I am Satan, watch my head spin.

I've already gone over my weight watchers points for the day and I've got 6 more hours of awakeness. On the bright side, I've stuffed myself to the point of sickness so I probably won't want anything more to eat anyway.

Friday night I went out with the fredtalkers to play pool and then to see CNR. I had really looked forward to the night because Wendy was going. Last time we hung out she was just so much fun. Danny met up w/ me at the pool place and we all went over to KC's for the show and met up with even more folks. 90% of the night was great!!! I danced, hugged cute boys, went home w/ Danny and fell drunkedly to sleep at 3am. At 7am he started talking. I tried to splain to him that it was too early but he kept talking. I dragged my hungover butt to the kitchen and cooked breakfast, then got a shower. I whined and whined and got dressed. Danny left around 10:30 and I had to get ready to go to Tree's house.

I love Tree's house. I was especially excited because it's been a while AND Adrianne and Paige were coming. Unfortunately my body was completely pissed at me for being a bad girl the night before. I had fun visiting and then took a nice 2 hour nap when Adrianne left. After that Tree and I tucked baby Jay in and her mom in and then sat on the back patio as always and cured the problem of it's ills.

Sunday I had plans to go kayaking. I got up at 6:10am and got ready. We headed out to the Rappahanock campground waaaaaay out in the woods. Once we got out there we watched a safety video and then they drove us waaaaaaay farther out into the boonies and dumped us off. The water was 2 feet low. This is something they could have said LAST week before I agreed to go. But anyway. There were five of us. Tyler, who arranged the trip. Brittney, who has unrequitted love for Tyler, Reena who is a beautiful Indian (dots, not feathers) who was terrified of snakes and generally scared about our trip, Steven who has Turrets syndrome (I fucking shit you not!) and me.

The highlights of the trip for me were not as high as the lowlights were low. I mean, I had a super time joking w/ Tyler. Brittney's crankiness about him not paying attention to her was a little unnerving at first but she got past it and we all got along fine. Reena got dubbed "sacajaweah". She was our guide. She said that she was the most afraid because in horror movies the black person usually dies first and she's the closest thing we had. She was much fun and by the end of the trip was willing to sell her soul to just end the day. I had to agree with her. The low water caused soooo much strife. We had a hard time getting over a ton of places and the water was so still that we literally had to row or shove ourselves for 11 miles. It was the longest 6 hours ever.

After that, I was dying. Everyone else was headed home to get a nap. I was headed to work for 12 hours. It wasn't bad til around 3am when my body just gave up. I took a short nap but then just threw in the towel at 5am and left work. I came in an hour early today to make up for it.

Danny seems to feel edgy about something. I think we're almost to the point of needing a conversation. I am sure he still likes me because he keeps wanting to do stuff with me. I just can't figure out if he's checking up on me or just showing me attention. Like, he called me Saturday night just as I'd gotten to bed at Tree's house. He never calls. He asked to see pics from the kayak trip and he got onto IRC tonight after I told him that I was entirely too sore to come over.

As terribly busy as August was, I have vowed to make September much calmer.

Here's what we have going on so far:
9/1 Sign Jake up for Hockey league/Lawyer appt at 4pm
9/2 Twinkie and fajita wraps with Alex and Peggy
9/3 Get the kids school stuff bought, sign Kendall up for the next gymnastics session and then head to the river once Danny gets there.
9/4 River
9/5 River/work
9/18 Lisa's wedding
9/25 Race w/ Alex at MIR

See, much calmer *sigh*

Posted by krystal at 1:45 AM

August 27, 2004

One reason I love peggy

Breccnat (6:53:02 PM): Hang on, gonna photoshop us onto mudflaps...brb

Posted by krystal at 6:45 PM

August 25, 2004

so then...

Sunday I slept in so that I could go to work. The kids slept in too. I woke up around 11 and just called it a day as far as sleep.

I missed my folks all weekend because they'd spent the weekend at the river. Sunday night I went to Danny's on my lunch hour. That's pretty much every night I work now.

Monday I found out that Charlie Bell died over the weekend. I feel so bad for his wife and kids. He was such a good man. Honest, faithful and a good provider. I remember when mom barfed on their driveway after drinking the wine they made for Lake Anna Vineyards. Cancer's a real bitch.
I got to James's house to drop the kids off and told him about Charlie. He said "yeah I get my test results back Wednesday". I said "ah, checkup time?" He said "no, I'm having problems". UGH. I pray that things are ok with him.

I talked to dad about Labor day weekend. He said that they won't be at the river so I've invited Tree and baby, Danny and the Fernandez family. We'll all have a blast. The kids are stoked.

Opal is in labor.

I've not had the heart to tell him about Trev's behavior problems in depth because I don't want to worry him. I have contacted the school. I'm going to see if Marcella, Bobby's friend who is the counsellor at spotswood, can talk to him. I just can't give up on him but I really am at a loss about how to deal w/ his bad attitude. I want to choke him and I know that's not the answer.

So tonight is the last night of work. I spent the 3rd night in a row at Danny's house for my lunch hour. He's coming with me this weekend to see Crush N Run. Am I wigged out about the amount of time we're spending together? Not totally. I just don't understand it, that's all. I guess one day we'll talk.

Tomorrow the girl and I get our hairs chopped at Gayle's house. Thursday night is gymnastics and poker. Friday is pool and the crush n run thing. Saturday I get to hang w/ Adrianne and Tree. Sunday is a canoe trip. There's no grass growing under my feets.

Posted by krystal at 2:48 AM

August 24, 2004

girls vs boys

Sean (7:13:42 PM): thats a girls word...
me (7:13:50 PM): haha
Sean(7:13:51 PM): engine is a guys word
Sean (7:13:56 PM): manicure is a girls
me (7:13:57 PM): you get the easy ones
me (7:14:07 PM): like
me (7:14:08 PM): anal
Sean (7:14:12 PM): uh huh
Sean (7:14:14 PM): and you get
Sean (7:14:15 PM): NO
Me (7:14:20 PM): HAHAHA

Posted by krystal at 7:26 PM

August 23, 2004

OK fine.

This past week was so full of stuff.

Why are they all full of stuff these days?

Last wednesday I had a call from the Dept of Labor job. I went in for an interview and they offered me the job right away. I wanted out of my current job but as the chips started to fall, I realized that the job I want is not in DC. It's not in Reston either. It's somewhere south of Woodbridge and as of this moment, I'm alreay employed so WHY leave for more work days farther from home.

My interview was at 2pm so I couldn't make it to work afterwards. I hadn't had a bit of sleep and I was exhausted. I found out today that one of my coworkers has something to say about it. I'll deal with his bitch-ass next week when he gets back.

Anyway, the whole end of the week was spent weighing odds and speculating and dreading. Finally I realized by Friday that there was just no possible way I'd have quality of life at that job.

Thursday night when the kiddies went to bed, I went to Peggy's house to watch em play poker. That was fun except that Alex was there and we, once again, wrecked each other's sleep time. I think that talking to him heavily swayed my decision to not accept the job. I really think that some people "get it" and he's one of them.

Friday was another blur. I hung out w/ the kids and stuff. Friday night we had Stacy and Alexis and their kids over. I think he wondered what we do on girl night. It must be hard for a guy to realize that we sit in the kitchen, talk, smoke, drink and listen to kids fuss. He took it for a while then suggested we play Trivial Persuit. I was winning for a long time but he made a comeback and won. I think that was for the best. I don't care who wins games and men always seem to care, no?

Saturday was the Fredtalk picnic. Talk about fun! There were so many freakin people there. The kids had a ball, I did too. At 8pm we went to Dave and Maryjo's house party. The kids swam, I shot the shit w/ the adults and we rolled home around midnight.

I felt a little guilty because the entire weekend I didn't invite Danny along. He mentioned wanting to go to the cookouts but I didn't extend the invite. I did drunkenly say he should come over AFTER the parties. Luckily he knows how I feel about guys being around the kiddies and he declined the bootycall.

I'm tired...I'll finish up later.

Posted by krystal at 5:06 AM

August 18, 2004

Blew out my flipflop

Tonight I broke my favorite shoes. I got these awesome sketchers flip flops at the beginning of summer by accidently clicking "buy now" on amazon. They are the ubercoolest things and now as of tonight they've gone to that big shoe store in the sky. RIP cool sandals.

To pacify myself I ordered the new Jimmy Buffet cd. I should have ordered Whiskey Lullaby too. I love that song but I'm not sure which artist has it on their cd...either Allison Kraus or Brad Paisley.

Today I got a call for a job interview. This one is for a contractor for Dept. of Labor in DC. It's normal hours, normal days and normal pay. I hope they call me again tomorrow. I'd love to get back to uh..normal.

I also got invited to go see Mclaws Drive this Friday night. If I can line up a sitter I'll go. I hadn't planned on going out though because Saturday we have 2 cookouts to go to. We'll see. I love hanging out with Alex so ...maybe.

Posted by krystal at 2:23 AM

August 17, 2004

Because there's nothin else to say today...

I love nataliedee http://www.nataliedee.com/index.php

Posted by krystal at 3:55 AM

August 16, 2004

Boy (am I) crazy.

Last week I did things I'd needed to do for a long time. First there was the financial stuff. I will soon be free from the stress of 13 years of bad financial decisions. It's a bigger relief than anyone can ever know. I still feel funny about it but sometimes in life you have to swallow your pride and just admit that you suck. I suck. There, I said it.

I cleaned out the sun room. It looks so nice now. I'm hoping to get either a futon or a daybed so that I can use that room as a guest room if I need to. The rest of the house got cleaned too...INCLUDING THE BASEMENT. It was soooo filthy that I came very close to defeat but my kids urged me to just get it done and we all worked as a team. Amazing. I just wish it'd stay that way. I have some folks who are willing to come haul shit to the dump for me. For that, I am so grateful.

Now we all know it wouldn't be fair to have the hard work without the payoff. I knew I needed to get my house cleaned because I'd offered to host Opal's shower. That came later though.

Wednesday and Thursday I had the most effed up sleep schedules. I would go to bed at 8 and 9pm then wake up at 1 and 2am unable to resume sleep. So what's a girl to do? That's right...go to wal*mart. I went shopping to try and stay awake or make myself tired. It didn't work very well and I ended up taking long naps that just messed me up more.

Friday was to be my movie date w/ Byron. He cancelled on me though. His reason was good and I'm ok with it, but I will think twice before getting excited about a date w/ him again. No worries. I had already bailed on girl night so I decided to drop back and punt.

Once the kids were gone I got ready for girl night. We met at Brocks, this trendy bar downtown. They had 80's music and expensive beer. There were 7 or 8 of us there. So we had a few beers and then drove over to the pool hall on Princess Ann street. This guy Stephen's band was playing bluegrass there and we'd said we'd stop by. Oh man that was fun! Not only were we the youngest people there, but we also had more teeth. The music was fantastic and they played my request for Salty Dog. Yehaw!! At this point, Danny called. I told him we were having girl night and he'd have to chop off his penis to attend. He said it was sounding like I could use a DD (wonder why?? did I sllllurr) and that he was on his way down. I told him where we'd be and he met us at the next bar which was The Loft. We went from blue grass to jazz in one fell swoop. When we got there we ran into Scott and his son. They swore they weren't trying to crash girl night. I was just glad they were there because it took some of the pressure off of me for allowing a boy to come to girl night.

The music there was good. I'm not much of a jazz fan but it was relaxing. Danny got there and we had a few drinks before he drove my drunk ass home. I was really glad to not be driving because the laws are a lot stricter now and it's just not worth the risk. I don't read much into Danny. He's nice, we get along great and there's no pressure. I just wonder how long we'll go out before we actually have a real conversation. If a man says something and there's no one around to hear it, is it still stupid? Yes, yes it is. (props: adrianne)

So Saturday I woke up when mom called to tell me that they were home from NC. They had the good sense to come home before the hurricane hit. Yay. I was very glad she called because sleeping was not what I had on my agenda for the day but since we were up til 2, 9am wasn't exactly sleeping in.
Danny took me to get my car before I could get a ticket and then headed back home.

I finished cleaning and preparing for the shower. I was just the host so I didn't really have to provide stuff which rocks since I'm too poor for that bidness. One at a time people bailed on the shower. I didn't care because they're not my friends, they're Opals. She still got tons of gifts because people dropped them off.
I had invited Alex and John to come down after the shower and hang out so around 5ish they showed up and around 6ish the shower people left.

We started drinking around 3ish. When everyone left and it was just Peggy, Alex, John and me and we decided to watch Kill Bill 2. I immediately fell asleep and woke up just as the movie was ending. I didn't even try to rationalize why I sleep during movies. I just do.
Peggy went home around 11 and John went around 1am. Alex and I always end up doing the stupidest things...like talking til 5:30am. He was going to a Dead concert Sunday so I'm sure he was exhausted for that. I slept til noon and then cleaned up the house again. I had to go pick up 2 hamsters that this chick had to give away. The kids are going to love them.

Now I'm back here at work again. I went to see Danny for my lunch hour. He lured me in with tales of fried catfish. Once again, I drove back to work wondering how long we'll go out. I wonder in a nonworried way though. It's a relief.

Posted by krystal at 2:49 AM

August 11, 2004

my phone and my cat are better than Terry's.

bizlimkit: wared you go
r333th4x0r: to grind one out in the car
r333th4x0r: pwahaha
bizlimkit: you serious?
r333th4x0r: no!
bizlimkit: :-(
r333th4x0r: I went to make coffee
bizlimkit: hm
r333th4x0r: hm?
bizlimkit: new phone tomorrow
bizlimkit: better than yours
bizlimkit: sexier too
r333th4x0r: so
bizlimkit: it should get me a lot of ass
r333th4x0r: mine's not fancy but it'll be mine and that makes it better than yours
bizlimkit: yours will get you negative sausage
bizlimkit: no, you don't understand
r333th4x0r: ha. just watch.
bizlimkit: whatever you have, i have a better version of
bizlimkit: ;-)
r333th4x0r: mine's like
r333th4x0r: bottom of the barrel
r333th4x0r: but it'll get me more ass than a toilet seat
r333th4x0r: http://www1.sprintpcs.com/explore/PhonesAccessories/PhoneDetails.jsp?navLocator=%7Cshop%7CphonesAccessories%7CallPhones%7C&selectSkuId=nokia3588i&FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=1476015&CURRENT_USER%3C%3EATR_SCID=ECOMM&CURRENT_USER%3C%3EATR_PCode=None&CURRENT_USER%3C%3EATR_cartState=group&bmUID=1092203726639
bizlimkit: HAH!
bizlimkit: toilet seat
r333th4x0r: hehehe
bizlimkit: EWWWW
bizlimkit: that phone is GRODY
r333th4x0r: hahaha
r333th4x0r: i love it
bizlimkit: it's all huge and ugly
r333th4x0r: i've always wanted one
r333th4x0r: i HATE my flippy one
r333th4x0r: hate.
r333th4x0r: it's tiny and stupid
bizlimkit: nonono flip is the shit
r333th4x0r: flip sucks.
bizlimkit: your new phone is so gay :-(
bizlimkit: i feel sorry for you
r333th4x0r: hahahaha
bizlimkit: hahahah
r333th4x0r: I CAN BUY COLORFUL
r333th4x0r: thingys
r333th4x0r: to go around it
r333th4x0r: you know?
bizlimkit: yup...i would expect no less from a phone designed for FAGGOTS
bizlimkit: pwnd!
r333th4x0r: hah
r333th4x0r: you misuse pwnd!
r333th4x0r: since I'm not and you don't.
bizlimkit: hahahah
bizlimkit: jooo funee
r333th4x0r: haha

Posted by krystal at 2:09 AM

August 10, 2004

All business baby none of the hype

I don't know who would name their kid Horatio.

This morning I got home and Peggy's pups had pissed in the floor and puked on my bed. I should have expected at that point that the day might suck. It was move out day for the Pegster anyway. I will miss having her around. I had to pick up Jake from Teddy's house this afternoon but that's not a big deal. He got to hang out at the pool. If anything I'm jealous that he's enjoying this gorgeous weather while I have to sleep through it. Not totally jealous because I'm so fucking tired that it's a blessing to sleep.

I decided to pull into Arbys to get one of those coffee drink things and a messican guy decided to pull out of his parking space at the same time. We hit each other and he was a dick. My car is ok, I'm ok, the mexicans are ok. Everything's ok. I just got off to a bad start and it went downhill from there.

Sean did not make matters better.

I'm tired, unfunny and disgusted. More tomorrow!

Posted by krystal at 5:24 AM

August 9, 2004

Rest!? Feh.

Two more days of work.
One more day of having a roommate and dogs
Two more days til my interview
Four more days til my date with Byron
Five more days til I shed the lining of my uterus.
Fifteen more minutes of work today.
Five more days til Opal's shower
Four more days til payday.

Posted by krystal at 5:54 AM

August 7, 2004

Scofflaws

This weekend is bible school at church. I was so happy to hear that it wouldn't be one of those everyday of the week deals. My kids always burn out by day 3. Last night Stacy and I piled the kids into the car and took them to church. We had 2 hours to kill. Less than that really but we wanted to make the best of it.
We drove to Scarfa's pizza place which is the very closest place to the courthouse to drink a freakin beer. That's like 5 miles away! We figured out that there is a need for a bar in the spotsy courthouse area. I wonder why nobody else has figured that out? So we drank beer, ate calimari and killed about an hour and a half. We had time to drink one more beer but we'd already paid our tab so we stopped at Fas Mart and bought a 24 oz miller light. This is where we got too tickled with ourselves. We had to find a place to go park to drink the beer so I said "OH I KNOW, let's go behind the old highschool. My mom's office is back there and it'll be dead tonight!" So we pulled into the parking lot of the Spotsylvania Teen and Senior's recreation center" and popped open our beer. It didn't take too long to realize that there was some sort of teen event going on. WOOPS. It's funny...you send your teens there to keep em of the street and here we were breakin the law (breakin the law) in their parking lot. We listened to a Waylon tribute album, chugged our beer , chewed gum and went to get our babies from church. No one was the wiser. The kids had fun too. They made whales and ate fish sticks and learned songs about Jonah.

Posted by krystal at 7:25 AM

Mommy's weekend

My weeks seem to blur by nowadays. I have so much going on that I can't seem to get it all into writing so that Adrianne can check up on me. I hate that we resort to this forum but at least we don't have to waste a lot of time on details when we DO get to talk if I spill it here. So if you're reading dahlin, here's the latest.

Thursday I slept til noon and forced myself to wake up because I really hate to have a late start on my weekend. The kids were at Stacy's house so I watched enough of Cold Mountain to realize it wasn't my bag. I went over and hung out w/ Stace for a bit then came home and cooked dinner and for the first time in a coons age, we sat down as a family and ate together. It felt like we'd returned to normalcy around here if even for a bit. I got a call for a job interview on Thursday as well and it gives me hope for the future. Even if it doesn't pan out, it's very cool to know that leaving verio is something I *can* do. Back to dinner...the kids were just as happy as I was to have together time. We did our "so how was your day" thing and everyone got a chance to talk. After dinner Dave brought Teddy over to hang with Jake for the night. We had beer on the front porch and discussed putting Jake in roller hockey with Teddy. Seems doable so I'm gonna give it a shot. He's been a good kid and something organized will be healthy for him I think. Then Stacy came over and we had girl night with the kids for the first time in months. We gabbed about everything, listened to Waylon Jennings and laughed at our kids break dancing and telling funny stories. I guess we all finally got to bed by 11:30. The only bad part of the night was that Trevor threw a fit and hated all of us before being sent to bed. There was too much going on to deal with him at that moment and I thought a cooling off period would be good (so I didn't wring his neck).

Friday morning I got up at 6 because Peggy's dogs were barking. It seems to be their favorite thing to do (as I am writing this it's 7am and I've been up since 5 when they decided I should get up this morning).
Jake was the first kid awake and we had our morning talk like we used to do. To say he's a morning person sells him short. He's pleasant all the time and my favorite time to gab with him is in the early morning when it's just us and he gets my full attention. It didn't take long to realize we were going to have fantastic weather. We opened up all of the windows and turned of the ac. When Trevor woke up we had a talk. (I had a talk, he had a listen) and I told him he had to compose an apology letter to the Fernandez family for his behavior the night before. Everyone else was out skating and Trevor's behavior landed him in his room for the best part of the morning. He finally found his way around to writing his sorry excuse for a letter by around 11 and was free to go out and play once he delivered it. I told him that he's not to go to their house for a week because it's not fair to Stacy or the other kids if he's over there being horrid; and he has been lately. :(:(:(

So, in the midst of cooking breakfast, Sean called. He was going to be in the area doing a reptile show at a daycare center and wanted to bring the creatures over here to surprise the kids. Since I had an abundance of kids, I agreed that it'd be a cool idea. He got here at around 12:30 and gave us a complete reptile show. If you look at the gallery you'll see it. Crazy animals! Everyone had a blast. I remember why I'm attracted to Sean. He's so freakin charismatic. But I digress. The show ended, Sean left and I took a nap. I'm gonna make a new entry for the next part.

Posted by krystal at 7:10 AM

August 4, 2004

Tonight on IRC

Nod> SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP, YOU NAUSEATINGLY FILTHY, DISGUSTING FETID SCUM SWINE.

Posted by krystal at 3:09 AM | Comments (1)

August 3, 2004

Everybody ready to riot?

When B and I stopped going out, it went like this.

Me: I didn't understand the situation, I can't live with it.

Him: I wasn't dishonest, was I?

Me: nope, thanks for the fun, bye!

After that we spoke intermittantly but always on a friendly level. I found this most peculiar because usually in my case, there's a break-up then there's a period of calm and then the shit hits the fan and there's no escaping the psychosis. I kept waiting for psychosis knowing that he's not the kind of guy to ever make the first move. He'd never risk his own ego to attempt to get me back, no matter how much he wonders what happened and why. This works perfectly with my aloof demeanor. If you don't run and he doesn't chase, there's nothing to worry about. eh?
So I was surprised when he hit me up on aim earlier under the guise of talking about work stuff. That was around noon and by 6pm when it was time for him to get off of work, we'd talked out what appears to have been a misunderstanding that got escalated by my quick temper and his stubbornness.
We talked about going to a movie next week. I'm just happy to see him again. I've missed him. (don't let him know that).

Posted by krystal at 5:37 AM

Stop the madness.

I have times when I think more clearly and more intensely than others. In the shower, in bed when I should be sleeping and on the way to and from work. Today on the way to work I was thinking about how the past 4 or 5 days are pretty much a blur. I thought to myself "wow at least I have my blog where I've jotted things down so my blurry days are captured in some way". Then I realized that lately the only writing I've done has been a grocery list of things we did. I haven't given of myself emotionally at all. Not here and not in real life.

So I'm blocking out the past several entries and I'm going to rewind a bit and try to start giving out more of me. It's not easy. I work much more efficiently as a grocery list. This will be like a school project!! weeee. The best part is, I can't fail.

Posted by krystal at 1:42 AM

August 1, 2004

or am I part of the disease?

The weekend is over. *phew*

I went to see The Village on Friday. It was surprising. I figured it'd have the blair witch letdown thing going on but it wasn't that way at all. That night Peggy, Brittney and I hung out and then later Danny came over.

Saturday I went to the fair and voluntered in the dunking booth. It was SOOO hot out. Then I made the mistake of giving blood. The combination gave me vapors and short of passing out I zonked out around 6:30 and slept for 12 hours.

Today a friend came over and gave me lots and lots of songs to listen to on my puter. I'm still not feeling up to par so I'm staying home to recoup. I had no idea that my age really does dictate how much fun I can have. What a sissy.

Posted by krystal at 7:55 PM