jank: They can't all be wizbangers.

May 26, 2009

They can't all be wizbangers.

I've had a case of the "ick" for a little bit now. I really want everything to be awesome and I'm sure that it will be but right now, this month, this week, this day, I'm really tired, crabby and just pissed off. My laundry list of complaints could go on and on and believe me, I'd love to wallow in them. In fact, anyone who knows me knows that I love to complain. Here's the part where you'd like to see me type "but I won't complain because it does no good". I'm not going to type that though.

Men, the ones who live in my house, are a pain. They argue, their egos won't all fit in one house, they circle each other glaring and sniping while the girls in the house sit back wondering how long before the next episode. They're, for the most part, helpless and do nothing much of consequence around the house. They do a chore or two when reminded and then call it "nagging". If you want me to stop nagging, TAKE INITIATIVE. The house is big and there are a lot of people living there. Kendall and I work our butts off trying to make things good and nice and we can't seem to keep up. So really...what I want to say to them, and have said repetedly is that if they're not going to do anything to help, at least stop with the eternal bickering and yelling and disagreeing so that the ones of us who do keep things running can do so in peace. Is that too much to ask?

The weekend was pretty crappy. My mom and I tried to make it good but I guess no matter how much you love a place and the people you're with, sometimes it's just not great. We ate some fantastic food, drank delicious drinks, the kids played in the river and got along great and there were naps for me each day. But the male members of our family, excluding Jake and Max, managed to stress everyone out again. One way I'm a lot like my mom is that we both want things to be nice. We want everyone to have fun and for things to be as great as we have built them up in our heads. Sometimes you can't have your way. Sometimes it's best to stop expecting people to be nice and have fun. Sometimes you need to just worry about yourself because if you hinge your hopes and happiness on someone else, it's likely that you'll be let down. I've seen myself build things up pretty much at every holiday or occasion. Do I lower my expectations or do I continue to be let down by others? Either way, it seems like a personal problem. I'll figure it out.

There are 13 days of school left. I'm so excited to see summer come and school end. I start working 10 hour days when summer starts and that means long weekends. Usually I end up spending all day Friday recovering from the long work days but at least I'll be at home. I hope to get back to my studying too because I have really let that go. Teachers are having to deal with SOL testing and it's making everyone a little edgy and the kids really just can't seem to get their heads into the game because they're so ready to be done. It's going to be a good Summer, if not, I'll choke someone.

Posted by krystal at May 26, 2009 10:42 AM