jank: Dear Jake,

January 25, 2006

Dear Jake,

You are making me lose my mind. I can no longer sleep peacefully at night and my hair is falling out. I'm tired, cranky, rundown, sick and overly worried. It's your fault.

I'm struggling so hard with what I see as keeping you alive and what you see as me being a bitch. I want you to be happy, I want you to have fun, and I want you safe. You're not making it easy.

I know you want me to understand you, but I want you to understand me as well. When I say to you "you are the company you keep" I am not saying it because I think it's right. I'm saying it because it's true. As much as you hate it, the reputation you earn now will follow you around. I know that no matter how much I cry and lecture you, you're just going to keep trying to etch out your identity in this world. I just hope you're wise in your choices and I hope you realize that no matter where you go or what you do, I will be following you and trying to keep bad things away from you and you away from bad things.

I love you so much,
Mom

Posted by krystal at January 25, 2006 9:51 AM

Comments

Damn that was powerful, as I can relate to how you are feeling. I hope that he steps outside of his self and takes a look back in and decides to make changes.

~Hugs~

Posted by: Liz at January 25, 2006 11:30 AM

dude, this is like runaway bunny, in teen form!

i hope one day SOON he realizes what a great mom he has.

Posted by: tree at January 25, 2006 8:52 PM

boy what a bitch.

i wish you understood me better, krystal two.

LOL JAKYAK

once, i had a dog and i punched him. then he took a dump on me and made me cry. my tears were tears of anger and frustration, to be sure. then, i met this guy named jake and he helped me realize that taking dumps in public and getting arrested was both fun AND funny. now, i'm a professional thief (lol, i rob pawn shops) and drive a trans-am as fast as i can through downtown f-burg at 2am, loaded on granddad's cough medicine, sticking it to the man.

yeah, actually, that doesn't fit him at all, so keep up teh good work lol.

Posted by: shep at January 26, 2006 10:14 AM

heh. whats this about driving a TA downtown @ 2am? I resemble that remark...

Anyways, you should tell him that I'm kind of f00xored for the next few years career wise. I did some drugs and stuff years ago, and that means I can't get certain clearances for gubment work.

And I'm cool b/c I have 'skateboarding' on my class ring. rock.

Posted by: N8-Diggity at February 16, 2006 8:18 PM